Oh the deep yearning of the wounded self. The unhealed heart center. The addiction to a person, a situationship, a fantasy. Distracting myself from the life and healing in front of me for the alleged greener grass of an illusion. I remember this viscerally. And you couldn’t pay me enough to go back to this internal world in my life lol. But hey, yearning can make great art! 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚

A lot of this time of my life is a blur, but I’m pretty sure I wrote this song in or around 2005, and performed it with my band, Bella Swank. This live recording was done at Bella Swank guitarist Kenn’s house in San Clemente, California in 2008.

Emerald Shards is the fourth song on my most recent release, Seven Seasons: a second anthology of music I recorded, from 2001 to 2009, and finally released Autumn Equinox 2024. The fist anthology was released on Spring Equinox 2024 entitled Ostara Orion. It includes songs I recorded from 1998 to 2009.